//she is very unfair to me. i don’t know how to say out how i am feeling. but i want her to know, i wasn’t feeling good at all. why is she treating me like that? Is it because i didn’t perform as well as she expect? try and stand in my shoes. think about me.

I was feeling emotionally down in school. Wasn’t in the mood to do anything. MONDAY BLUES indeed! I can’t concentrate in my reading, i can’t even concentrate when someone is talking to me about 篮球火. Oh seriously, how can that happen? ….

Supposedly, i am having my SS re-test today, but after i have thought over it. I think it is quite meaningless going for it. Okays, i had failed almost all of my SS test this year. (although a miracle happened this time, that i actually passed) The truth is common test contributes to 40% of my CA2.. if i had fail all the test including the mid-year &amp; common test, no matter how many re-test i am sitting for, there will still be a D7/E8/F9 in my report book. I might as well come back home! Isn’t it?</span>
Eh, i am really going bonkers because of this subject.

alright friends, i don’t want to talk about why i look so sad this morning, cause it is really something personal, about my family. I want to try solving the problem myself.  I know everytime you guys will say, i can share anything with you all.  But sometimes, i just don’t want to. Please understand my stand. It can be difficult too.

Goodbyes.

eh, the panadol is having a effect on myself.
i am going to sleep le.

goodbyes, i am going to dream about my antibodies(?) to help me recover from the very very sickening fever.

Oh well, i ain’t going to comment about what i type in the previous post. I am still thinking about what i should do next. Perhaps, like what she had said, I should forget everything are start afresh with everyone. at least i am still thinking., please wait patiently.

at time point of time. i shouldn’t let any other things to be troubling me. D: eh, it’s freaking hard okays? there is too much distraction for me. i can’t concentrate! *sad pls*

i am sick of those actions. sometimes, good intention are being taken advantage off. Oh ya. it may seems to be a joke to you. But at the very minimum, i wanted to help. Yet you are so unapperciative.

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you have no idea how i am feeling, you can’t imagine how heavy is my burden. all because you aren’t me. it terrible pls. try and put yourself in my shoes. perhaps, only then you can know.
0023 in the morning, i woke up from my dream.. i need someone to talk to.. i look down the contact list in my hp, & look at my reflection from the window. i suddenly feel that there wasn’t anyone reaching out for me. the loneliness had intruded into my world. i don’t know since when. i was hoping that you’re there. But there wasn’t even a msg coming in.

perhaps, i shouldn’t ask for more. “i thought you’re asleep”.. “eh,you don’t like people to sms you in the middle of the night. ” it’s all reason i found. & now, is time i stop. i am too self-centred, and i know it.. I hate myself beng like this. totally disgusted by my actions.

Goodbye.

Oh, i had 2 test today!
Chemistry & Geography.
both papers are easy,
pls let me pass!
i pray..

my humanities are in critical conditions. D:
seriously, i don’t even dare to dream about passing the paper. How am i suppose to squeeze all the chapters into my peabrain?!
sad sad sad.
help me think of some solution.

i prefer going for the OBS camp.
rather than school-organise-camp, we have experience it before, and it is 100% lame please!

i am reluctant to go for remedial, although all those are nutrients for our exams, but at this moment, i don’t think there is any available space for information to get into my brain. it’s is stuck. i think chocolates could do the job! Buy me chocolates pls!

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i don’t like myself behaving in this manner, i have been asking myself where is the usual old me? i was once … so different from now, i feel that i sucks. perhaps, someone is laughing at this sentence. but, you never know that it means a lot to me. I hope i can repair all my friendship.. not a easy task afterall, it takes time & sweat for a friendship to maintain. i am fortunate to have my friends.

i really need someone to talk to..
coax me with all those lies you have.
or just say those big big values to me.
at least i know you notice me.

i need time to sort out my thoughts first.
step one step behind,
and give me some space.
i will be fine soon.

i will never relinquish to such a small matter.
there is still a long way to go.
believe me.

goodbye.

new arrangement,
i prefer the old one.
i had got used to the previous one long long ago.

no more consultation after school.
good news or bad one?
i think it is because of his action.
he had to pay for what he had done.

do i really sound like Mdm Cheong when i speaks?
answer me!

alright,
a new tag board!
hmm,
very very tempted to change after i have seen Marianne & ZiHui change theirs.
do tag more..
Aww,
i copied Marianne & Zi Hui x)

bye

alrights,
took back my maths test.
i passed! thank god!
it is so unbelievable!
& physics today,
i can do well right?

skipped morning run again!
i guess many ppl hated us to core.
But, Sorry.
we are going to do that again on thursday!
OBC camp?
sounds fun.
it’s dirty there isn’t it?

well,
i took my identity card today.
i finally got a identity

Okays,
i had tried very hard to make my post interesting.
i think i didn’t manage to do it.

i need to sleep terribly.
But, i got no time for that.
sad.

i can’t forget what he says..
Oh my.